Brandon and I are so excited in this phase of life, preparing to have a baby. I feel so privileged to be on this journey toward parenthood, and am overjoyed that God has blessed us this way. It is such a miracle the way a new person is created, God knows every detail, and handcrafts each individual person. Psalm 139:13-16 say: For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.I’m also so grateful that my health has not been an issue at all. I was scared for a long time about how things would go if I got pregnant. I thought most likely I would go off the medications that have helped me for so long, get sick and have a miscarriage, which was heartbreaking to think about. I was very nervous about this stage of life. So I tried to control every aspect that I could with my health, but I failed at all my own attempts. After quite a while, I decided to trust God, and live out of faith that he is in control and has a plan, rather than fear of anything bad that could happen. God has proved himself faithful over and over again, and I praise him for his faithfulness, and how that helps me to trust him more.
God has us on a new exciting adventure. We may not be sure exactly how every detail will fall into place with our new stage of life, but I’m glad to know that God has a plan far better than any plan that I can ever come up with, and I’m so grateful that he is in control. Jeremiah 29:11 says: “For I know the plans I have for you”, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” I love that great promise from God, and I totally look forward to seeing his plans unfold for us, and our child. His plans always turn out far better than anything I ever could have dreamed up!